An Attempt

WOS just left. He is in some small way trying to negoiate the divorce but instead of talking specifically about that he just whines about how unfair everything is and that he shouldn't have to pay child support if he has no rights to his daughter. Complete drug treatment, get a job, register a stable address and complete your Pareting class. These are all things that need to be done before I am willing to give any. It's not that I don't want him to see her, but as a parent my job is to keep her safe. His situation is not safe. He is just so delusional that it is hard to talk to him. He keeps saying that he has to work around my schedule to see his daughter and then the majority of the time doesn't call or show up. I don't see how this is my fault. Sometimes I need a little more than 3 hours notice that you are free. How rude.

He told me that he has heard great rumors about me when I go out. My response was that his "friends" are probably over embellishing and I only wish I was having that much fun. Just wait til those from the bachlorette party, Milwaukee, St. Pats Day, my birthday and my sisters wedding start rolling in. The next 60 days are going to be scandalous fun;)He said he had heard things about RG and me. He wasn't going to listen though because RG and I are just friends. No response from me, I plead the fifth.

The more I think about it the more I think I should just go to court and not try to compromise. I am not afraid. There is a chance that he may get some of the things done on his list of "must-haves" but he is not motivated enough to do them all. He gets in this state of mind every so many months and then filters off. The cocaine always calls him back and he always goes. Sorry, piece of shit, waste of space. Pick on someone in your own class.

Best One Yet

3 miles in 37:36! Booyah! My best 3 miles yet! After I run I do weights. I try to mix up my routine so I alternate between upper and lower and always try to get core in. I am looking for some tips on the tummy area. I am looking a fat burner that works to help with the metabolism. I do free weights and use either the BOSU or stability ball but it's just not coming off. I have great tight abs. They are just trapped under a tiny spare tire.

I have not talked to RG lately. He didn't make it over the other night but he did text to say he was going to his other job.

St. Patrick's Day is coming up and I am going to participate for the first time in years. I am making an iron-on for my tshirt which says "No I don't have any Irish in me" on the front and then on the back I am going to put "but I'd like some!" Then my girl friend is going to cut and tie it for me. This should hopefully be a fun, scandalous filled day. Unfortunately it will occur 2 days after my sisters bachlorette party. I hope my town can handle what is about to transpire. Two short weeks after that I get to go tear up Milwaukee.

Back In The Saddle Again

After a gym hiatus for the last week I finally made it back.I went yesterday but didn't have a good workout.After some after dark, late night fun with RG I was back at it again this morning...HARD. (The gym that is:)) I started off by running 2 miles and then thought I would power walk the rest of my 3 miles. As I looked at the timer I realized that I could be dam close to my best 3 miles ever (amazing what good fucking can do to a girl) and I cranked it up again and again. I came close but fell short.After being on my deathbed this week I am still pretty proud of the fact that I did 3 miles in 38:15. That basically breaks down to 13 minute miles. Not bad considering I started off doing 15 minutes miles. I have two pairs of skinny jeans that now fit and if I can drop an inch off my waist I can have two more. Any hot tips for fat burners? I stepped on the scale and it read 171.5. I think my pre-baby was 161 or 163 so I have 10 pounds to go for that goal. My next goal is to get those 2 pairs of jeans which are so close to fitting to actually fit by March 15th. That's my sisters' bachelorette party. So close yet so far away. 3 weeks to drop an inch. We will wait and see.

Buddies

So while I was out RG rang to see what I was doing. I informed him I had just become Vice President. Gotta love Asshole. I send him a message on my way home and he said he was still out. Great, I thought. Last time this happened he came over way too late and was in a SUPER DRUNK,not so nice mood. This time not only did he come over early but in a great mood. He sat down on the couch and I plopped next to him on the opposite end with my legs across his lap. We shot the shit with some playful banter on the couch for a while which was really nice. Then I moved to the other side of the couch where we just made out like teenagers for a while. Again, nice. Then came sex. It wasn't our normal hard core porn sex. It was normal sex. Thank God! I can't do the hard core porn sex all the time. Maybe that's why the sex seemed different, because it was normal. I asked him if this was semi-sober sex and he said yeah, blame it on that. (I think he was referring to the duration of sex. Which is not as long as when we are both half in the bag.) I told him that if was only our second time, to which he laughed and I told him that I thought it was actually nice and I liked it. It was friendship sex. It was sex between 2 people who share a mutual fondness, an understanding for each other.

Tonight would have been the perfect time to have "the talk." I didn't do it. I have time before my events come up and it's not like anyone is beating on my door to take me out. I don't need to define what we are. Our relationship, whatever it is, is fun and drama free and I rather like things they way they are. So no defining us, just setting boundaries that will keep our FWB and our friendship intact.

As he was getting ready to leave I told him that the booty call phone works both ways. He said that he would call me at 2am on his way home from work today. I told him that it didn't matter when he called and he was welcome anytime so long as there were no sexcapades and he was in and out in half an hour. We will see if my phone rings tonight.

Premeditation

Every move is calculated. Every outcome and scenario is played multiple times. Every word uttered is hoping to get the right response. Words keep coming out until the optimal respone is received. I realized that I have great new quality...I can be very manipulative.

I realized this as I pushed send as a text went on it's merry way. Immediate response. I have a pretty good idea what is going through the head of the receiver. I planted the same thought in the head of WOS. That fucker called me last night and I told him that I didn't care to listen to his sob stories and I was so pissed out him not being able to be a decent human and pay his child support and really I just hated him and that I had to get off the phone or I would say things that I would regret. He seemed pretty shocked. He was really shocked when he asked if he could see his daughter tonight and I said that I had plans at 7 but before that was fine. He asked if he could stay and watch his daughter and I said no she was going to spend the night at my parents that way I didn't have to come home. I want him either so pissed he does something really stupid and I get a restraining order so he gets tired of his "wife" making him look like a fool that he agrees to the divorce. He has Carrie the Crack Whore and Angie the Home Wrecker. I have RG who I fuck and I am still waiting to find out who is the man I date.

I put the same idea in RG's head. He tried to sound all cool and nonchalant "I'll give ya a shout later." Whatever fucker. You and I both know you are gonna call and now your interest is piqued because you can't figure out what, or who is occupying my time until much later. He will ask in an "I really don't give a fuck" way and see what kind of goods I give up. Sorry honey, the goods are mine. We obviously need to have a little talk while we are semi-sober. I have some big events coming up that will be alot more fun if I can be scandalous.

WOS called back saying that he wouldn't make it over. I got all dressed up for nothing. He was digging. What am i out to do, is it a date. I paused at that one and said no. Now his head is racing. Neither him or RG will be able to think of anyone else tonight and I will be somewhere no one can find me. I am looking so good though that we might have to head out for a quick one on our way home. I definately can't let this one go to waste.

It All Took It's Toll

So as I was driving home from work yesterday it hit me. The fact that I was sick and worn down caused me to give in to the emotional turmoil and deny it no longer. With the winter being so harsh school has been called alot so that means that I don't get paid. I went to my grandma's house and broke. I borrowed money from my grandfather and told him that I had no idea when I would be able to pay him back. It is not supposed to be this way and I finally placed blame which is so unlike me but now I am so full of anger and hatred.

I truly hate WOS! I hate the person he is, what he stands for, his mixed up sense of reality. It is not right that he can just go through life without a care for having money while I struggle to start over and am 3 months behind on everything. I truly hate him. I didn't want to hate him because to me, in some small way, it meant I still cared. I don't. I want this stupid divorce over. I want to screw him the worse than he has me. I am not going to be nice when it comes to court and when he does see his daughter, even though I will try and bite my tongue when shes around, I will tell him exactly what I think of him. I am tired of him calling me from his crack whore and homewreckers numbers. If he can't bring something every time he comes then he doesn't need to come over. We do better when he stays away.

I never should have fallen asleep in RG's arms the other night. It's not the fact that it was him but it made me realize that I just want to be loved again. Hard core porn sex is great, but so is making love with a person who you love. I want that. I want to be able to have both kinds of sex with the same person.

On a happy note: due to the fact that I have been sick two pairs of jeans now fit which did not before so I am motivated to go to the next size down. 3 sizes to go til May 10th.

Strings Or No Strings

First let me say that I came down with the flu on Saturday and strep on top of that Monday so my life has been miserable for the last 72 hours.

Next: ANON made a comment on my last post and I went to respond and decide it was too long so I would just ponder his/her statement in my next post. The was along the lines of how it seemed that I was trying to create a relationship out of a "No strings attached" situation.

Let me start off by saying that I am not against the idea. Get rid of the Mr. Asshole persona and the amount of booze he consumes and you have the only man who has never let me down. My Prince on a white horse so to speak. Always there to rescue me. I am also aware that we may be at different places in our lives. He is the one who said that he didn't want me to fuck anyone else. I didn't coerce anything like that out of him. I am totally fine with the whole "fuck buddy" thing. I just want to know what are boundaries are and we have not yet discussed it. So he doesn't want me to fuck anyone else but can I date? I am fine with that and in the event that I meet someone of interest then I end our agreement. However, I am not one to do the whole double standard thing. If you can do it I can do it.So we already know that he doesn't want to hooking up so if that's the case then he can't either. So what is that? An exclusive "fuck buddy" relationship with dating privleges? What if he doesn't want to to date either? So we are not dating anyone or each other and we are not having sex with anyone but each other, what do you call that? I call that, "No way in hell is that exceptable to me!" I need attention. I need male companionship. I will not be someone's dirty little secret. If I am good enough for you to bed then I am good enough for you to take out in public.

Short response: A realtionship I am open to if it happens. I am not holding my breath. Boundaries? Where are they? I will need some definate ones in place before April 3rd or it is anything goes.

Inquiring Minds Want To Know...

Read Fun City Recap first...No cheating! Did I fuck him like the whore he is? You better believe I did! Dirty, hard core porn sex, just the kind I like! And I am wearing pants! There is nothing hotter than dirty talk, especially with some way above average dicking going on. A lot, I don't remember or only remember parts. The talk started with RG saying he didn't want me to fuck anyone else. He wanted this piece of ass for himsself and he does not want to share. (Sorry honey, if those are the rules than they apply to you to because you don't get to have your cake and eat it too.) I have always said that a drunk man's tongue is a sober man's mind meaning that a person will not say anything drunk that they weren't thinking or feeling when sober. Every comment he made or question he posed I threw right back at him. I don't remember certain parts of this conversation but a couple comments made were me asking him if this continued if he was afraid of developing feelings or falling in love with me. He threw back some asshole comment and I told him to stop because I knew the only reason he did it was because he was intimidated by me and that I scared him. That he can try and be Mr. Asshole but I knew better and I knew that he wanted me for a very long time. He admitted that he missed me and that he was hoping every night that I would call. I mentioned the ignored booty text and he swears that he sent me one back stating that he was working. The above conversation was had with lots of dirty talk thrown in and while the fucking was still going on.I asked him what we were going to do and he asked if I wanted to discuss it right now or in the morning. Not wanting to totally ruin the sex I said morning.

It has been a long time since I have fallen asleep with a mans arms around me. A mans hands on my face as he is kissing me before we both drift off to sleep. He didn't let me go the whole night. I really miss that. This morning went exactly as I knew it would go. We didn't talk about anything. Our "relationship" has not been defined. I think I definately put him in his place as far as feelings go and I hope he remembers at least bits and pieces of our conversation to know that I am going to call him out. At 6'5" stop being such a pansy ass you big baby and tell me you have feelings for me already. He now knows that booty calls work both ways so all he has to do is pick up the phone. Hopefully he remembers. The next move is his and if he waits too long then it will be sex at Miller Park on April 4 with a hot stranger. Either way I don't expect to be disappointed.

Fun City Recap

This was the best trip EVER!!! I will try to put alot of the details in here but after the tequila body shots it gets a little fuzzy. RG picked me up around 4 and we headed to Fun City. I wanted to kill WOS at this point (different post) but settled for making myself a drink and settled in for the 1 1/2 hour trip. Upon checking in we changed clothes and headed down to the bar. My company got $70 gift cards for use on drinks/foods/arcade/bowling/gokarts. The first card was free and each additional $70 card was $35. We bought 2 more which was a grand total of $210. Two cards went strictly to booze. The compnay hosted a pizza party then it was off to the casino. I didn't do so hot so i went to the arcade and hung out with my work collegues. About 10 RG called to find out where I was and I had gone to the room to get a refill (I had brought my own bottle too.) I headed down to meet him in the bar. This is where it first starts to get interesting. As I walk into the bar I see all of my co-workers and 2 males who are my age say that they were just talking about me. They were discussing how hot I am and that they could not believe that my husband was divorcing me. I set the record straight that I was divorcing HIM. One of them is putting major moves on me. Touchy feely moves, verbal moves..he keeps telling me how hot I am and how my ex is crazy...(stufff I already knew but was nice to hear from a member of the opposite sex...especially someone that I have never really talked to outside the office. Of course he is doing this in front of RG who I have not gotten a good read on at this point. Alcohol flowed. Then came a barrage of shots...cherry bombs, slippery nipples and then the dreaded TEQUILA...(like the song "Tequila Makes Her Clothes Come Off...keep reading.) The lady who ordered the tequila is mid 50's and didn't know what a body shot was. I volunteered to demonstrate, using RG's body of course. At some point after this I VAGUELY remember flashing people in our party. I only have recollection of this because after we closed down the bar we were in we went across the river to GulfPort where the bars are open til 5. While my girlfrind and I were dancing, a couple guys came up and asked if I was at Fun City earlier becasue they had seen me flash. I was now a celebrity. I saw a lot of people from Fun City at Sam's (name of the new bar.) Who the hell knows what time it is but we head back to the hotel and upon entering the room I tell RG about my celebrity status and he was pissed because he had missed my show. I gave him his own. As I was jumping on the bed (childish but fun none the less)I got the "kiss" look. We all know what that leads to.

NSAD

Instead of loathing Valentine's Day, I joined others around the porld in celebrating National Single Awareness Day. I had no idea this was actually a holiday until I read OEN's blog. What an amazing idea! I may not have gotten roses (which aren't my favorite anyway), chocolate (I don't eat that much of it anyway), or loving of any sort. I alos did not have to BUY anyone else silk boxers, dinner, cologne, etc, etc,etc. I worked, I went to the gym (water retention and all) then my daughter and I came home to our happy house and set up her tent in the middle of the living room. She had the most fun trapping the poor dog inside.

WOS called me in the morning saying he had a present for his daughter and to call him back. I tried his phone 3 times and it was disconnected. He did not leave me a forwrding number. I work in the dungeon at the school and I don't get service in certain areas. If someone calls it will only come up "missed call" but not provide the number. I have told him this many times but we all know what someone's brain on drugs looks like. He never called back and I am leaving today at 4 so I am sure he will call a zillion times and it will be all my fault that he couldn't see her on Valentine's Day.Instaed of dealing with his stupidity I am simply giving my phone the night off. The message will say I am out of town and will return calls on Saturday after 4:00. That will lead to a huge barrage of nasty calls and voice messages. I may then have to get a restraining order due to harrassament. I should have thought of this a long time ago.


Cheers to getting away tonight for some much needed fun time!

Weigh Day

I am thinking about skipping Weigh Day today and waiting until the 'water retention thing goes away. I was a whole pound heavier yesterday and I definately felt like it while I was running. On the bright side...I did 3 miles in 40:52! Take that water weight! I feel a little better today but I don't think the scale will give me a fair reading.

Monday my daughter was sick and I called everyone looking for someone to do me a favor. RG was the only person who called back to see what I needed but he was on the other side of town heading to a sporting event. At least he called me back. I still don't know what time we are leaving on Friday. He is trying to get hi shift covered. WOS is MIA. That's how I like him best. Or that's how I like him at all.

Resolution Update

1.I will start living my life.
Update: So far so good. If there is something going on I make it a point to try and do it. No more sitting around at home for me.

2.I will find a babysitter who can come to my home to watch my daughter so that I may meet my friends more often.
Update: I have had my friends daughter twice now so that I could do stuff. The first time I had scandalous sex with RG and the second I went out with my girlfriend for drinks.

3.I will get my gym membership back.
Update: DUH! have you not been reading my other posts?! I use this religously, at least 6 days a week and some of those are 2-a-days. My daughter loves the daycare.

4. I do have time for a relationship. I am going to start dating. By February I will have gone out on at least 1 legit full fledged date. (Some things take time.)
Update: I have not found a date yet. This one may take a little more time and may not be accomplished by the end of February...stay tuned, I have a plan.

5.I am going to be a stronger person when dealing with my ex and think of not only my daughter but myself.
Update: I am happy with the way this one is going. He is not getting away with anything and I am calling him on everything. He is still in denial though so I don't think he takes me seriously most of the time.

6. I will kiss someone on New Years Eve.
Update: We all know how That one turned out. For those who don't read back...No kiss at the stroke of 12 but hard core porn sex afterward.

Summary: All in all I have stayed pretty much on track, not there that were any that I could totally mess up.

Milwaukee Or Bust

I talked to MG today and she said it was fine if I wanted to stay 2 nights when I go. In fact, she said with all the drinking and hooking up I would be encouraged to Stay the whole weekend. She said I would not believe all the single men going. **Happy Dance** I could get laid. Since what happens there stays there that also means his number, his name...it will be like for 2 days I am a totally different person. I can be anyone I want. Who do I want to be? I haven't let the "alter ego" Dayna play in a while. Oooh I can hardly wait...fresh meaT I mean men! Since that happens April 4th I am hoping to be down 10 pounds and 3 sizes by then. When I can do 3 miles in 36 minutes then I will add on mile 4. Hopefully that will happen in the next 3 weeks then I should be smoking hot. Look out men...I am on a mission.

I talked to RG today, I mean actually talked on the phone. At least when I call he doesn't avoid it and send me to voicemail. I just wanted to make sure that he got my text message about Friday. Yep he got it. He got the one from the bar yesterday which means he got my booty call and ignored me. MG and I decided that if he makes a move on me Friday then I should not turn him down but just fuck him like the whore he is. I can so do dirty whore sex (with him as the whore. Remember, my compnay paid for the X-mas party and this overnight trip and he is tagging along which makes him bought and paid for.) Remember THAT when you're screaming MY name bitch.

WOS called last nught to see if he could see his daughter today. I told him we would be home after 5 and guess what...it's 6 and I haven't heard from him. He sounded really out of it when he called so I wonder if he wasn't under the influence. I swear he calls just to see if I am going to say "No" that way he can be mad at me for something. He has sure earned his nickname. I would love to write a tell all book out dealing with someone with an addiction but I would have no idea where to begin.


54 days til MKE and counting!

It All Makes Sense

After looking at the calendar I have discovered that I am just suffering for really bad PMS. Hence the cravings and being tired all the time. I hope it doesn't decide to arrive Friday or Saturday next week or that would really put a damper on my out of town festivities. Since I have been working out so much it is kind of hard to tell if it will be on time or early.

When I weighed on Wednesday I had gained back half a pound. (I said my eating sucked becasue of PMS.) Thursday since we didn't have school my daughter and I went to get pizza for lunch. I ate a lot of it. In fact, I ate all but the 2 pieces she did. Saturday I decided that if my cravings for food were going to continue then I needed to combat it with a harder workout. I did 3 miles in 45 minutes instead of my usual 2miles. Then I went to the bar and ate a helping of french fries (they are they really good crinkle cut ones) and drank 4 beers. Sunday I went to the gym and did the 3 miles in 43:40 and stepped on the scale to discover that I had not only lost the half I had put back on but an additional half as well. I just needed to boost the old metabolism a little. My food cravings have vanished and now I am just tired which leads me to believe that my weekend out of town will be ruined. Maybe it's for the best.

I have been waiting for Single in Milwaukee to post about the cruise or at least call and give me the details but so far she has been MIA. I hope she is not lost at sea.

Life Without Internet

So I didn't pay my internet bill and they disconnected it Tuesday night. I thought I was going to lose my mind! We had a huge snow storm so I was trapped Tuesday night and Wednesday in my home with no internet. Huge storm = No school. No School = Booty Call, which was IGNORED!!! WTF?!?! Dumb ass ignores my booty call! I have not heard from him nor have I solicted him for weeks and now he ignores me when we are supposed to be going out of town next Friday?! WTF?!


WTF?! He must have ESP because I seriously just got a text message from him asking what time I want to leave next Friday. WTF!? I have come to the conclusion that I am too much woman for him and he is scared. He is probably used to dealing with teeney boppers who have no real idea what they want or how to ask for it. Plus my sexual appetite may have been too much. Oh well. I will just have to find another friend with benefits and keep this one as just a friend.

WOS hasn't been heard from for a few days now. He must have used again. He has some serious denial issues that I wish he would get past so that we could speed this divorce up. Whenever he calls me he always says "Hi beautiful!" like he did when we were together.Get over it...it's over...I am screwing someone else...opps was, I was screwing someone else. Which gets me thinking...

What do I do if next Friday RG puts the moves on me? I certainly won't ask for it but what if he does? I guess I can do kegels all week and then fuck him like he's never been fucked before then just be a bitch. I don't believe in revenge but I would guarantee he would never forget me or that night. Maybe I should take a trip to the porn store just in case he makes a move then I can put him in his place and he can be my bitch for the night.

Somethings Surprise Me

WOS called earlier to see if he could come over and wanted to see what we needed for groceries. I need everything at the moment butt wipe since you can't seem to pay child support. I know that he was using his food stamp card but who cares. He brought 2 gallons of milk, 2 dozens eggs, 2 bags of shredded cheese, string cheese, chicken breasts, Kool-Aid, frozen pancakes and some other odds and ends. WTF?

A friend of his, the cool chick from earlier posts, had her divorce court today. She is now divorced, and VERY VERY drunk and upset about it.Hopefully he sees this and will want to settle instead of going through all that in court. This might help my cause.

I had the best workout today. I ran 1.6 miles of my 2 miles and I finished the 2 in 26 minutes and 37 seconds. Fabulous! I have been EXTREMELY hungry today. I am no longer craving a large Taco Pizza but now I am really craving sex. I wonder if RG would stop by so I could screw his brains out since my daughter will be home tonight. I really only have to wait 10 more days but that seems like forever when you are as horny as I. I would not be able to have the hard core porn sex I am craving but at least I could get the desire for his lips off my mind so I could focus on something else.

Patience, Patience

I really wanted to step on the scale today. I really wanted to try on the pair of jeans that I want to fit in by the 15th. I didn't. I know that the only reason I feel SUPER thin today is because I had a great workout today. I did 2 miles in 30 mintues and followed it up with an abs class. I am going to wait until Weigh Day Wednesday before I do either of the above two things. At my open house on Sunday when I didn't have anyone there I compensated by doing walking lunges. For the first time my ass HURTS. I really hope that 2 days from now the scale reads: 174. If that doesn't happen then I hope that the jeans fit a little less snug. I was craving a Taco Pizza tonight. I was craving Coconut Shrimp from Outback tonight. I didn't have either, yet, and instead split a bag of M&M's with my daughter. Boy, no hard core porn sex, no taco pizza, no coconut shrimp, I really need to start giving in to my cravings! Februaryh 15th hopefully I can induldge in at leat one of my cravings.

What Does it All Mean?

So I didn't hit up RG for hard core porn sex.It has been way too long, but if this FWB situation is going to work then it is probably for the best. The more casual the less chance of me having relationship like feelings for him right? (Or at least more than there already are.) I hate the "what if" game and I don't like thinking about how scenarios might go but if I had my way this is how February 15 will go....

He picks me up and drives to the hotel. After checking in we head to the room to put our bags away before heading to the casino. After the door closes behind us he grabs me and pushes me up against the wall. He kisses me the way only he can (makes me wet just thinking about it.) He then says that he has been wishing that I would have called because he really missed me. After ripping of all our clothes and having hard core porn sex we go down to the casino and he is my epidimy of a perfect date. Then he makes it known that he's ready for round 2 and we spend the rest of the night in the room where he professes his undying love and we have more hard core porn sex. He doesn't have to profess his love but I definately want the porn sex.

Anyway, (I got sidetracked from my real post) since I didn't hit up RG last night I went to bed HORNY. Instead of dreaming of his strong masculine hands and perfect lips running all over my hot body, (opps there I go again) I dreamt of an ex boyfriend from like 6 years ago. WTF?!I have no clue where he is living, (last I knew he was in Colorado) if he is married, what he is doing. I haven't spoke to him since December of 2003. Why did he suddenly appear in my dream? In my dream he had some illness and only had a short time to live. I tried to think of how to spell his last name so I could google him but I can't even remember that so why did he show up last night? There was nothing really special about him was there? I don't think I even had sex with him in my dream so he served no purpose. What does it mean?

Booty or No Booty

When my daughter took her nap today I re-read OEN's Threesome MFM. Bad idea! She is so masterful at writing that she takes you there and you can almost experience it yourself. Even after giving myself two orgasms this afternoon I could really go for some hard core porn sex. There is only one person to hit up for hard core porn sex...RG. Unfortunately he is probably working tonight. I really wanted to try and wait until our overnight trip on the 15th before I hit him up for sex again. That gives me 2 more weeks of working out before he sees me. A lady at my office today said that I looked like I had lost a lot of weight, which made me feel good. I would like to see if he notices a difference. Don't worry...I am not going to be stupid and angry if he doesn't, it's just that he is the only one who has seen me naked(other than myself) before I started working out and now. So even with as horny as I am (I think I might die if I don't get laid soon) I am torn. Decisions, decisions. Since I have to work tomorrow and after my open house I am meeting a potential client to list her house I had better not get my lips all roughed up which comes from kissing RG. Or I could just not kiss him. That's half the turn on though since the boy is gifted in the "knowing how to use your mouth" department. I may have to excuse myself again..the thought gives me the chills -shudders.

Ramblings

Today we took our special ed kids roller skating. (I work at the high school.) How much fun that was! We had a total blast not to mention the great workout it provided. That was still not enough for me and I went to the gym as soon as I got home. I did interval training with the intervals being 1 minute and then a higher incline. When I reached 10 minutes than I lowered the incline until it got back to zero. Then I ran half a mile in 5 minutes and went to the weights. The pair of jeans that I would like to fit into by February 15th fit in my waist and butt, however, they are a little snug in the thigh area for my liking. I really hate lunges and will avoid them at all costs but it looks as though I have to add them on.

MG ordered the opening day tickets because I decided that I was going to go. I love going out of town because for a brief time I can pretend to be anyone or anything I want. It is my 'Mental Break" from the reality called my life. I decided not to ask some booty (RG) to go but rather be able to flirt all I want while I am there. Who knows, depending on MG's schedule I may stay Friday and Saturday both. I haven't left my daughter for 2 nights before so I think I am long overdue. Sorry Grandma and Grandpa:)

I only heard from WOS once this whole week. That is so nice when I don't have to deal with that. The one time he called was just to say that he wasn't going to make it over to see his daughter. YEAH...for me!

Best Catches

So while surfing through some other links from others blogs I ran across this one:

http://cantbelievehesstillsingle.blogspot.com

This site is so funny. They just rip on people's dating headlines snd what catches some of these potential mates just might be.